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This isnt supposed to be a debate, Im looking for solid-ish answers. I have been lucid-ish dreaming a lot more than usual lately. I dont know how I compare to other people but I did not many have lucid dreams before. But I got HOCD and I usually try to remember what I dream and mostly do. So I was wondering if dreams do have meaning because my dreams are somewhat recurring in a way. The dreams arent simillar in terms of what happens but it always somehow involves a male person (non-sexual way) who I might know, more like seen around. Usually its anyone who I think I might have feelings for. This guy who I once thought I had a crush on (due to my hocd), I had a non sexual (as far as I can remember) dream about where I called him for some reason the rest I dont remember. I also had a dream where I accepted I was gay but it felt forced and uncomfortable and I felt like I was lying to myself. I had another dream just now actually where these zombies where breaking into my room and one started touching my privates and I thought I dont care if its a guy and then thought ew and woke up. The dream wasnt EXACTLY lucid but I could think to myself, and I dont think I was aware its a dream but at ONLY CERTAIN TIMES, I could control my body for like 2 seconds. I also have violent dreams once in a while. Most female sexual dreams I have involve rape, and only had a maximum of 8 gay sex dreams but I can only think of 2 but I think I had like 4 -5, how many have you had and are my numbers normal? Are my dreams a result of repressed desires or are they things from my waking life. I am familliar with Frueds idea of repressed desires and all that but I think dreams are a result of thing from our waking life, for example I didnt think of the guy I thought I had a crush on, in a while but I remember him and suddenly I have a dream where I talk to him. Something like that<<<<<<<<happened way too many times to be a coincidence. But I didnt think of rape so where does the rape thing come from. Most of my dreams are linked to my waking life but only a couple arent and those are what scares me. ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS I ASKED, I REPEAT ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS I ASKED, I cant stress that enough please PLEASE answer any questions I asked I always tend to get half-assed answers.

P.S Pardon the caps lock it was supposed to be like that so it catches your eye and for effect So could my dreams mean something? Do dreams have meanings or give signs of repressed desires? OR are they as a result of our waking life. Thanks a lot and sorry if I came off as rude im talking about the last part to be more specific