Posted: Nov 13, 2015 6:15 am
Hi there, I mostly post on this for help and not really for fun as a lot of you might know but what I need help with is a problem I have been having. Before I tell you the rest of it, I need to say that I had HOCD for the past 2 months but I dont know why this is happening as I have been feeling a lot better lately and barely have HOCD. So here it goes. I keep having recurrent dreams mostly of a sexual nature and a lot of the time involving homosexuality. I have learnt to ignore it and pass it off as things I thought about during my day life but this one is slightly different. I dreamt I was doing something I havent done in a long time, which is acting like a girl on a chat site(dont judge). I might've thought of why I did it as a passing thought today or yesterday, but could I remember something from that long ago that lasted for no more than a few secs? I believe in Calvins cognitive dream theory but his theory doesnt really explain random dreams that people have. This is the only site I feel like I can get help on as its mostly full of nice people (as far as I can tell). I keep having recurrent dreams like that and I never had recurrent dreams before my HOCD and didnt even have them after (until now). Its not always the same dream most of them are different but still manage to stay on the same topic which is homosexuality. I almost NEVER had gay sex dreams or gay dreams before my HOCD and at absolute max had 6-8 in my entire life but im guessing 2-4 or 5. I know a lot of you will say "I have a lot of random dreams they dont mean anything" but mine arent random at all, and I dont see any reason to have the dream I had today because I didnt think of that for any longer than a few seconds. Please dont take the mick to you it might seem like a joke but its much more than that to me