Posted: Jan 01, 2017 10:19 pm
Keep It Real wrote:PensivePenny wrote:
Anyway... it still hurts. But, what can you do, right? Life deals some of us shitty hands.
I haven't given up on my father - I sent him a long email on boxing day reaching out. No reply yet but it's early days.
Sometimes I feel like I've been dealt a shitty hand but then I think that tomorrow is a new day and who knows what's over the horizon. I'm lucky to be mentally well, financially sound, in good health....count your blessings innit. I know what you mean though - the relationships with your immediate family are so very important. I'm lucky that I get on with all of them, except my father, and I'm working on that one. Fucking religion eh? Poisons everything.
Yup. I hope you hear from your dad. For me, they've hurt me too deeply. Even if they begged my forgiveness, I'd turn them away. I couldn't risk them hurting me again. They turned their backs when I needed them most. I could have forgiven them for years afterwards, but I'm beyond that. For better or worse, I am who I am today, in part because of them, their religion and what they taught me. Religion, as "poisonous" as it is may very well have been the challenge that made me think as deeply as I do. Without it, who knows, I could have just ended up a bottle blonde with a closet full of shoes and a thousand FB friends. I didn't do too bad
Now, we just need to help you work through that whole 'free will' thing
I think I may have a better idea why you feel the way you do about it.