Posted: Jan 01, 2017 11:11 pm
It sounds like you're able to be at least moderately objective about your condition, VazScep. Thanks for sharing. I'm not some genius brain-trust by any stretch of generosity. But, I'm not stupid either. The more you know, the more you see. I don't understand how any human could see the truth about the universe, and in spite of all its beauty and wonder, not be depressed. Take life for example... to have the awareness that it is not only finite, but an insignificant blip of time, that everyone you know and love will be gone. That awareness causes (me) a great deal of pain and I have had to deal with it by various means. Cope. Adapt. My point isn't to share my life's minor struggles, but to say that I think there is a connection between madness and awareness. You, as a mathematician, exploring to the heavens, have a bird's eye view that most of us don't have. You have an awareness that perhaps borders on if not fully enveloped in genius. Is it any wonder reconciling that knowledge with human emotions can drive one to madness? It's how I always imagined it for Van Gogh and those like him.
I don't mean to wax poetic. Like I said, I'm no genius, but I have felt at times that tension between knowing a truth and not wanting to know it.
I don't mean to wax poetic. Like I said, I'm no genius, but I have felt at times that tension between knowing a truth and not wanting to know it.