Posted: May 24, 2017 9:46 am
Just had my most recent psychosis and feel I have walked away with an interesting idea.
Can fear exist for anything physically manifest in the present? e.g. Statements like "I am afraid this person is hitting me" or even "I am afraid I lost everything I have" sounds like something a bored butler in a P.G. Wodehouse book might say.
The object of fear, unless I am mistaken, always exists in the uncertain future. This does not mean that there is nothing to be afraid of. There is plenty. But perhaps if we are actually willing to examine our fear, when we realize we are experiencing it, then we are giving fear a place to exist---to be---(the eternal future) while at the same time realizing what we fear does not exist in the now, except as a concept.
Normally when we have a frightening thought, the ego(or whatever you call it) seeks to immediately kill that thought/banish it from existence. We fear the fearful thought itself, perhaps, thus loving the not-being of an idea of X not-being, maybe thus giving it fodder to grow stronger and move from being to becoming.
Maybe giving love to double negation makes what is not-being become being?
I realize this could be (n)utter mumbo-jumbo so thoughts of others would be appreciated...
Can fear exist for anything physically manifest in the present? e.g. Statements like "I am afraid this person is hitting me" or even "I am afraid I lost everything I have" sounds like something a bored butler in a P.G. Wodehouse book might say.
The object of fear, unless I am mistaken, always exists in the uncertain future. This does not mean that there is nothing to be afraid of. There is plenty. But perhaps if we are actually willing to examine our fear, when we realize we are experiencing it, then we are giving fear a place to exist---to be---(the eternal future) while at the same time realizing what we fear does not exist in the now, except as a concept.
Normally when we have a frightening thought, the ego(or whatever you call it) seeks to immediately kill that thought/banish it from existence. We fear the fearful thought itself, perhaps, thus loving the not-being of an idea of X not-being, maybe thus giving it fodder to grow stronger and move from being to becoming.
Maybe giving love to double negation makes what is not-being become being?
I realize this could be (n)utter mumbo-jumbo so thoughts of others would be appreciated...