Life ends at.... 45 ?

[aban57]

Hi everyone,
I haven't been very present in the last few years. I have been struggling more and more with my mental health issues. Despite several types of therapy, the situation keeps getting worse. Every day is just pain, and nothing else.
So I decided to start a euthanasia process, as I'm lucky to live in a country that allows it. I only just started it, so it will take a while (probably around a year).
I started announcing it around me, and it just destroys me to see the suffering I cause.
I never had any suicidal tendency, I just want the pain to stop.
I started talking about it (even advocating for it) on different shows, as I think it should be a basic human right everywhere.
I'm really glad to have met all of you, and I learnt A LOT here. I wish forums like this were more popular nowadays, as we need to fight disinformation and misinformation with all we've got.
I'm sorry I won't be doing much fighting any more, but I just don't have the strength any more.
Thank you all for everything you taught me, and all those discussions we had. I trully cherish this place.

[Adco]

Hi Cindy

I'm so happy to have met you all those years ago in France when you were still know as Cedric. This is a bittersweet moment for me.

Not being in your shoes makes it difficult to imagine what you are going through. I can only accept that you are making a choice that is yours to make alone. You must be aware of the emotional repercussions that will ripple through your immediate friends and family. I know. My daughter committed suicide 4 years ago and it is still painful to think about. But, we do get over things and now she is free from the turmoil that was her life.

The only consolation we can take from this is that after death there is no more suffering, just an infinitely long sleep without any dreams.

[The_Metatron]

You’ll have to do what you think you must, of course.

I know a few things, though. Time tends to figure out a lot of things. And, I will miss my friend.

[The_Piper]

I'm sad to hear that you are struggling so much. Depression is harder than most people really know. My mother suffered from depression, and the word suffer is not an overstatement. I've enjoyed our interactions here over the years. I don't really know how to respond to this news, but I'm glad that you told us.

[aban57]

You’ll have to do what you think you must, of course.

I know a few things, though. Time tends to figure out a lot of things. And, I will miss my friend.

I've been fighting this depression for 8 years now. Tried almost all forms of therapy during that time.
I'm not giving up because I don't have hope that it will get better, but because I'm too tired to keep fighting.

[aban57]

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[Animavore]

I know you've likely thought long and hard about this and tried every other option and there's no point asking, imploring, or pleading with you to reconsider. And I have to fight an impulse to do so anyway.

I always enjoyed your posts and was really looking forward to meeting you in person that time in South Africa, and was really sad when you couldn't go at the last minute.

My hope is something crops up last minute here too.

[aban57]

I know you've likely thought long and hard about this and tried every other option and there's no point asking, imploring, or pleading with you to reconsider. And I have to fight an impulse to do so anyway.

I always enjoyed your posts and was really looking forward to meeting you in person that time in South Africa, and was really sad when you couldn't go at the last minute.

My hope is something crops up last minute here too.

Thanks Ani. I also regret I couldn't meet you all there.
I've aways liked your contribution here, especially your humor