Agrippina wrote:I know people say they "believe" but in their heads, personally when they're alone in the dark, do they actually say to themselves, "I really, really believe!" Or is it just cant to get people to listen to them? I've asked this question of believers and they say they really do believe that God as they define him, really, really exists.
I’m coming in to this a bit late and right now I don’t have time to read 13 pages... however to address your point.
When I was a fundie it wasn’t a matter of “belief”, (at first yes, but not later on) it was a matter of knowing; as in 100% knowledge of an absolute actual fact.
It would be like trying to convince someone that you loved your spouse. Regardless of what one does or says, it’s simply impossible to prove it to anyone else since all of the outward signs could be easily be faked, but you know in your heart that your love is as true as true can be.
In our congregation we never said that we believed in God, in the sense of perhaps or possibly, we said that God existed and we knew that for a fact. I suppose belief (knowing) could be on a sliding scale from 1 to 10. I was a 10. I knew that God existed as surely as I knew that the sun would rise every morning. I had zero doubts because (wait for this one!)
I had seen Jesus in person. Yes, I really did!
When I was born again he appeared in my room. That incidentally, was not totally uncommon. A select number of people in my congregation had seen visions too but only “true” believers got to see them.
When I next went to church and told the congregation that Jesus had appeared to me I was met with a shower of PRAISE the LORD! There was not even one doubting or questioning eye in the building.
Having actually seen Jesus: any doubts that could have ever crossed my mind were a thing of the past. I simply had proof positive that God exists.