Alright lets see...
This is such a load of bullshit.
Bad start!
Belief is not a choice. You can want to believe and not be able to,
No thats not true, you can believe anything you want freely. Wanting and not being able too in your case is
choosing not to believe because of X reasons, but then again this is a choice you made based on these reasons and not downright impossibility of belief as if you had some condition that rendered belief impossible to you. This was your choice and I hope you are happy with your life.
so much is obvious by the number of ex-Christians who did not want to lose faith, tried praying harder to God to restore it to them, but were unable to fool themselves and in the end had to face up to the fact that they could no longer hold onto belief...
The fact that they lost faith dosen't prove anything. This smells of fallacy , namely the appeal to a certain group ( these christian who lost faith). For instance, we have a wide number of people who lost faith in NATO's intervention in Afghanistan, however this cannot prove that the intervention is good or Bad.
even though it had been a great comfort and otherwise beneficial to their quality of life. I used to really want to believe too. Strangely, that didn't make it happen.
St-Augustine-
I found thee not, O Lord, without, because I erred in seeking thee without that wert within. Refelct upon that.
This 'if you ignore God's love that's up to you' rubbish is just a massive guilt trip,
Please define what for you is ''God's love'' Id hate to think we are talking about something entirely different, wich I suspect it is.
attempting to pass off the fact that non-believers exist by blaming them for not accepting fairy tales as truth.
Yes, Its sad that some people blame others for these things, I don't think any judgement can be passed here on this earth regarding these matters.
I've seen nothing of God's love,
What is ''God's love''? Please tell us.
I have no reason to believe it is even there, so why should I, and how could I be expected to?
You need to tell us what you mean by ''God's love'' do you think God would love you if you won the million, or if your life would become wonderfull in the blink of an eye, what is God's love for you, tell us!